The bun is back

So my friend Bun is back and I got to meet up with him (for a short while) last night after English Open Mics (woohoo! Hosting is fun! :)). I got late because the English open mics go on for so, so long now.. ahah people need to learn to stick to their 7 minutes. Probably going to start getting stricter on the rules.

So we hung out a bit and as usual had a lot of stuff to talk about, but in the end, we were both tired so it was quite an early night and now he's basically packed with meeting family, friends, etc. sorting out everything that he couldn't do while he was in Germany. I actually don't even know when he's leaving heh. Hopefully we'll get to meet up once more before he's gone. It's been over 6 months since I last saw him, time really flies, but as we said last night, who knew we'd be where we are now 6 months ago? So 6 months later, who knows again! :D

Who knows. That really is the question at the end of the day. Destiny anyone? Karma? Just a blank canvas for you to paint on perhaps? Well I've become firm believer of "tomorrow's a new day" because not knowing what will happen means you do have the paint brush in your hand and the canvas is technically completely blank. It's for you to decide what strokes it deserves. I mean, this whole 10 day per entry thing is great because when I look back, I can see how 10 days before another entry, I'd have no idea that in the next 10 days, so much would happen. Even now, as much as the last 10 days seems to have gone by so quickly, it actually hasn't. When I stop and think back, a lot of memories come flooding into my mind. I've met people I never thought I'd ever meet, I've had conversations I never thought I'd ever have, I've an experiences I never thought would ever happen to me. It's weird but in a good way.

So really, who knows? I don't disagree with people who say "if it's meant to be". I mean, a lot of things work out in weird ways. Like Karma, I believe in that stuff because often I've seen things fall into place as they are meant to be. I suppose, I see it as more of an energy balance thing, like every action needs to have a reaction, and shit people will get shit handed back to them. It's just a matter of time and relativity. I mean 2 people could have great lives, but 1 of them could have a greater life, and relatively speaking, the other one had a shittier life. Even though that so called shittier life may still be a great life, it's still a shittier life. It's hard for me to explain, but this whole idea of everything in life is relative has struck me quite deeply because it happens all the time. What is stress to someone else may be a walk in the park to me because relatively speaking, that is nothing compared to what I face every day. This brings me back to the "if it's meant to be" because sometimes you could see it as "if it's not meant to be". I mean it's like looking at the popular optical illusion where you have the 2 faces or the vase?

Like which one do you prefer? Without the vase, you wouldn't have the 2 faces, but without the 2 faces, you wouldn't have the vase. So like when something happen to you, it also means something else didn't happen to you. Like you have that opportunity cost at all times. If you're busy sleeping so you can be refreshed the next day, that also means you're missing out on what happens at night. So like maybe somethings weren't meant to be. Like you weren't meant to win the award so that you'd reflect a bit more about your personal skills and what is lacking. In some ways, you gain more from things that didn't happen. When you lose out, it makes you wonder why you lost out and in turn you discover a lot more. I mean, a lot of people who've been dealt a shit hand of cards in life often don't wish they were dealt a better hand, instead, they've learned to not only deal with a shit hand, but make a good hand out of a shit hand. In other words, they get to enjoy the life of a shit hand of cards along with a good hand a cards that they managed to create! So their level of achievement just doubled! Whereas the guy who had a great hand of cards, now only gets to enjoy what he was dealt because he's not going to go and make it a bad set of cards, just to increase what he experiences. So it's like if you started at the top, well you miss out half the fun.

Who knows? You might decide your life's long enough to go down, and climb your way back up. You know how they say, sometimes you have to take two steps back to take a step forward. If anything, after you go down and climb back up, your whole view of the bottom changes, now you know what you're looking at. You'll notice things like those buildings you walked by when you were down there. What I'm trying to say is that, very often I do catch myself wishing for something after I see someone else with it. Sure, I could use that extra 1 hour a day to just review everything. After all, a lot of my friends spend 2 hours just watching TV! I'm sure they can spare 1 for me. But this also makes me think faster because now I try my best to review what's going on on the side while I'm doing other things.

Ahaha, yes, so my last post was about keeping things simple and it is late at night, I should be getting some ZZ's, so let me get to my point. The thing I was thinking about today and I'd like to say is that sometimes, be glad of the things you don't have. Why? Because that means you have another thing that could be a potential goal that you could work at achieving! The joy of earning something completely outweighs the joy of being given something. Yes. That was my point. I said it in 1 sentence. Ahah but it too me 10 days to get to it.

Enjoy the week!