31 August 2014

Hello 7.5 years old blog!

Well, well, well, another milestone, my blog is officially 7.5 years old! Woah! I talk a lot! Thank goodness I type quite fast otherwise I'd be wasting a lot of my time.

So life has been crazy busy as usual but recently, I've hit a wall where I can totally feel myself banging into a mental maximum. One of my clients even told me "I noticed you were making a few mistakes, I had a feeling you were over-worked because you normally don't make these mistakes".
It's interesting how life is all about testing the waters constantly and learning when to pull back.

In fact, a few days ago I was talking with my band mates, remembering the good ol' times and how life was so much simpler back then. It made me think, why has life suddenly become more complicated now? I mean, I remember many years ago, I even used to take Tuesdays off. Yes, like around 5 - 6 years ago, I'd work weekends but Tuesdays would be my day off where I would go out and walk around and just enjoy that day, knowing I still had the whole week ahead and the weekend waiting for me to take care of everything.

Sure, business has grown, my comedy career has become bigger, but it's been a while since I've had a day off guilt-free. I've come to realize this is even harder than being organized. To be able to take your mind off work/growth and just live. I guess that's what they mean about being in the moment.

Nonetheless, there are times when I'm totally in the moment: When I'm working out and when I'm on stage performing comedy. I suppose because both those tasks really do require me to be fully involved, it doesn't allow space for anything else to creep in.

But looking back on the last 7.5 years, what I have learned is that I've totally shaped my habits and personality. Like I can see myself slowly slipping back into certain ways. Every time I re-read old entries, I notice patterns in myself. For example, I can't seem to get enough of challenging myself. Like, I've discovered this is what I'm all about, constantly challenging my limits because I'm very curious to see how far I can push myself. It's not about competing with others, but competing with my previous self. Like if I did a killer 25 minute comedy set one night, the next time I'm on, I don't want a killer 25 minute set, 26 minutes is what satisfies me. I suppose greed for growth is what it is.

At the same time, I've started to come to terms with myself and have literally been forcing myself to take some time to just do non-work. That means stuff that isn't directly related to my career or self-growth. A good example is playing video games. Yes, I know this sounds very ridiculous, but when you've been conditioning yourself to be disciplined and stuff, actually being non-disciplined suddenly becomes quite challenging. I mean if you told me "Go play games for 1 hour straight", my brain would be thinking "sitting for that long isn't good, I better set a timer to at least stand up every 10 minutes" ahahah...it's like conditioned into my system.

However, recently I've been taking many moments to re-think life in general. Like, why be so aggressive, why not take it down a notch and enjoy the process a bit more. Instead of aiming to jump higher, why not aim at enjoying the ball game more?

When I was 25, I had this random goal that I'd like to retire at 35....this is still a goal in my head, and so far things are on track. But honestly, the more I notice myself, the more I realize I'm not a "goal achieved, now sit back and relax" kind of a guy, I'm a "goal achieved, what's the next adventure?" kind of guy... so I suppose I'll never end up retiring.... which makes this goal all the more interesting. Now I'm curious what state I'll be when I'm 35...hmmmmmm.

Anyway, 7.5 years, lot of growth and definitely lots of changes. I'm turning 32 this year, which means in 3 years, I'll be back here reporting about my 35 year old achievement....

04 August 2014

Inside out

Happiness doesn't depend on any external conditions, it is governed by our mental attitude
-- Dale Carnegie

Man I love that guy. Well, mostly because it's always refreshing to read a quote here and there to re-calibrate your mindset when you see a tough road ahead or a situation that should be better than it currently is.
The good news is, I finally had a full weekend to just catch-up on, where I wasn't sprinting through work or trying to get something done before a deadline.
However, it seems that somehow the world loves to keep opening another door the moment I manage to close one. Or perhaps it's just my need to write everything down in my to do list and my brain can constantly come up with things to keep myself busy. For example, when I had some extra time, my brain suddenly thought "hey, your mobile phone seems to be running really, really slow, perhaps it'd be a good idea to format it to see if its a hardware problem or just some odd software problem" and into my to do list it goes. Sure there is no deadline there, but it's a task. And after being disciplined to never (well almost never) delete something from my to do list until it's finished, or it's out-dated or irrelevant, it's very hard for me to honestly say "you know what, I don't need to do this" and delete the item from there. Talk about over-disciplining your workflow.

Well I recently was featured in an RTHK show called Hong Kong, My Home and I must say, I am super, duper impressed with the quality of the outcome. Seriously, RTHK never ever fails me. I don't think I can embed the video so here is the link: http://programme.rthk.hk/rthk/tv/programme.php?name=tv%2Fminoritiesinhk&d=2014-07-30&p=6316&e=270325&m=episode
It's in Cantonese though :P

So my comedy career has taken another step up as I just returned from Kuala Lumpur where I headlined a weekend of gigs at the newly opened Crackhouse Comedy Club! It felt so cool to fly down on Wed, do an improv night, then shows on Thur, Fri and Sat! Then fly out on Sunday. The biggest thing I learned is that food in Malaysia is dirt cheap, and super, duper unhealthy! Ahaha oh man, the amount of sugar and oil I had was ridiculous...

...but oh so tasty and worth it!

The turn out was great and we're hoping to bring Cantonese down there, that'll be a killer idea and fingers crossed super attractive! :)
Anyway, let's see what the next 10 days have in store first.